Close the book

Just a few days left in 2009, are you ready for the new year? I am, for once. I learned that it is time to close the book on some issues in my life. I chose to do so today. There are certain things that I settled today in order to go into 2010 with a clean slate. I have nothing to prove to anyone, and I am letting go of all these past hurts, lies, challenges etc. I am certainly not who I used to be. If you are one that I may have offended this year in any way, I am sorry. I am learning to control this critical spirit that has so easily attached itself to me- finally! I am no longer listening to and believing the lies. I have learned that sometimes you have to go back to what you thought was the most difficult place to start, to take care of unfinished business. I have nothing hindering me any more and can go into this new year not in my strength but His, not by my power, but His.

I can only encourage you to do the same thing. Close the book on the nay-sayers, close the book on those who have taken you for granted. Close the book on those who don't encourage you to go forward. Get settled in your spirit who you are and whose you are. Associate with the people who say "I see God in you, I see destiny in you." Get closer to those who celebrate you instead of those who are killing you. You are either going forward or you're going backwards. There is no standing still in the Kingdom. The Kingdom is always advancing. I say advance with it, don't regress from it.

I have looked for the perfect church and never found it. I have looked for the body of Christ to be who I wanted them to be and could not accept them in their imperfections. Why not, Christ does. What I considered to be a personal strength, turned out to be a major weakness. My perfectionist spirit sent me down a slippery slope that I did not think I could climb back out of.
Well, I am climbing. Going forward. I have learned a lot the past two months in being away from CFAN, how I was wrong in many ways for the most part. I came back today with my imperfect self to my imperfect church and learned to view it from the eyes of God, and not mine. Life will not always go the way I think it should. Church won't, my kids won't, my marriage won't, my job won't, but one thing is for sure, God will take me down the path that I am supposed to be going down; the rest is just life. I guess that just makes me human.